Hol plans

OMG.. sorry for neglecting.. totally forgot bout the blog...

Anyways... I was too busy too.. I've been working my ass of the past few months and I really hope that I can get a good result, if not a very good one..

So I' "stuck" in here.. Johor actually... "stuck" in here with delicacies and fun.. also endless time to play as I wish.. (Hope so..XP)

Anyways.. After two weeks of being "cooped" up in heaven.. I'm home for a few days.. Then off to camp!! It's a buddhist camp.. Well.. it says so but I don't really think that there's a lot of religious stuff going on..

It's held in Port Dickson and I'll have to bring around a friend which would be hard since I, myself, do not really understand it THAT well.. Oh well... I'll.. see how it goes.. A week though..

Exam

Exam is finally over!!!!!!! Actually it was over this morning but I came up only now. Everybody went out already... Except me... And Michael and Henry... And Jia Foo... But that was only because Jia Foo got chicken pox...

Poor me... Kaka.. Seriously.. exam's over but... still have school and society tomorrow.... God... but I guess that tomorrow's atmosphere will be very light... at least...

Haunted

Spent every second online today listening to Taylor Swift's Haunted.. Realized that the lyrics are describing exactly what I'm feeling... Here are the lyrics..

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But, I never thought I'd live to see it break
It's getting dark and its all too quiet
And I can't trust anything now
And it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake

Oh, holding my breath
Won't lose you again
Somethings made your eyes go cold

Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted

Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this ?I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now
I'm haunted

Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I said to you
He will try to take away my pain
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead

Oh,I'm holding my breath
Won't see you again
Something keeps me holding on to nothing
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this

I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted

Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this ?I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now
I'm haunted

I know, I know
I just know
You're not gone
You can't be gone
No

Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
Won't finish what you started

Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this ?I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't go back
I'm haunted

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But, I never thought I'd see it break
Never thought I'd see it

The melody is beautiful.. And I can't stop listening to it..

Maybe the only thing I ever really wanted in my life is for someone to understand me...

Hence, when that's the only thing you really wanted, you get a song that's describing your feelings... no matter how many mistakes it has, it still deciphered part of your emotion right.. It just.. feels right. Listening to it, and thinking of all the people in the world that is doing the same thing that very moment.. It feels like I'm heard.. Like Taylor's singing out my story for everybody else to hear..

Truth be told, I am haunted.. I'm haunted by my past.. No matter how far I run, no matter how long I run, it always seems to be right behind me. Waiting for me to pause so that it can jump ahead of me to trip me into that black abyss again.. When will it ever stop??

Please... I'm so tired.. I can't catch my breath anymore... I'm tired of running away. I don't want to leave again.Stop. Please...

哭

是眼泪，憋太久了吗？？不然为什么连小小的事，都能让久违的眼泪失去控制的划过脸庞。。是我变脆弱了吗？还是因为人真的需要哭？？我不知道，也不想知道。没关系，把它看成磨练就好了，像制剑一样，需要让它在烧得通红后，一次又一次的把它浸到冷水中，让它变得坚强而柔软，不易断裂。能屈能伸嘛。。望向窗外的天空，心里想起最近反复无常的天气，应该是你在发脾气吧。。别这样，好不好？想我，就回来啊。。不要这样的，折磨自己。。

New Friends~~~

Had some free time today, so I came up here...

I've found some nice+new friends, and they're like, really nice to me and all... So, I think I would like to express my thanks and to say that once my friend, forever my friend!!!

Although nobody reads my blog and it's not really updated often... But still...

Anyways...

Thank You to my new friends: Evelyn, Pey Yih, Pei Shan, Yi Hua, Zheng Xing, Hao Jue, Carmen, Jia Yi, Shi Ting...... and many many more...

Another New Year....

2011 has started. I'm in a new class, starting a new life... Life's much more busier right now... More responsibilities, more burdens, more things to worry about, more things to worry....

Am having PMR and UEC this year... Must get straight A's!!! :P... Found out that i am further and further from my old friends now....

My Holiday..

WOW.. That's one way to describe my holiday..
It's packed full to the brim and I hardly got any time..
Well.. on the first day off the hols i went to Hainan, China.. Well, the trip was originally meant to "bring" my Grandfather's "soul" back to his home town.. But then me and my cousins, and then my family wanted to go ,so we all went to visit our Grandparents home... It was a interesting trip..
After that it was my Grandmother's house..
And then Cameron.. Yay!!
And now, I'm back!!

Feelings

Can't seem to put my mind in order lately... Or put it down on paper... Or make out what exactly am I feeling..

You could say that I feel disoriented, confused, puzzled, maybe even dazed..

Don't know what to record it down but I know that I have a lot to put down..

Anyways.. Exam's over now... Should be able to live a bit more.. I don't know? burden less?

Death

It's really hard to believe that a five letter word would mean tragedy, would mean floods of tears, would mean that a person, mighty or not, but important still, left everybody and went himself into another place...
I mean, wouldn't a word that means so much be at least a fifteen letter word or more?
My grandfather died last Friday and I went back to my hometown to attend his funeral...
I wasn't really sad.... I think it was because that my mind, bizarrely, didn't seem to want to accept the fact that my grandfather is dead..
I am happy for him though... His death brought sadness to us, but at least his soul and mind is free from the pain and suffering...
Rest In Peace, Grandfather....

Sports Day....

Thursday and Friday was my school's sports day...
I volunteered to serve during sports day...
Our duty is to "guard" the rubbish bins and make sure that the students don't throw them in the wrong bin...
I'm not complaining or anything but now my legs really really ache....
But it was really really really fun....
We had a great time yesterday on the bus back to school.. we told jokes, played games, and chatted and laughed like crazy hyenas.... And after we reached school we celebrated our society's president's birthday....
It was really tiring but really really fun...

成绩~~

我星期六拿到了成绩册,对我的成绩感到很满意哦!!!
我知道,虽然不是很好,不过我还是对我的努力以及成绩感到骄傲....
我拿到了第六名,总评均是78.5 ....
要继续加油哦!!!

Busy...

I have been very busy lately.....
比赛、生活营、步操比赛、学会步操、班级步操、学会服务。。。。
*Sigh*.....
I'm sinking up to my neck in here in work....
Pressure....
Haven't been eating in the canteen for so long.....
Haven't been eating at school at all!
Wonder when can I go back to normal...

Info on ღ情人节ღ

1/14 日记情人节
2/14 华仑亭情人节
3/14 白色情人节
4/14 黑色情人节
5/14 黄色与玫瑰情人节
6/14 亲吻情人节
7/14 银色情人节
8/14 绿色情人节
9/14 音乐与相片情人节
10/14 葡萄酒情人节
11/14 橙色与电影情人节
12/14 拥抱情人节

每个月都是不一样的情人节哦。。

Welcome~~~

Today is the day that I officially present my blog to everybody.....
I didn't put it out before because I didn't think it was ready yet...
And now, I'm proud to say that it's ready for everybody...
Of course, YOU might not like it for all I know....But for those who like it, please leave some comments.... Thank You...
If you don't like it, you could also leave some comments for me on how to improve it...
Thank You....

Today is my ninth day of holiday... and my last day at my relatives house.. tonight I'm going to my grandmother's house...

*Sigh*..... In approximately four hours, I would be cut off from the online world.... Encasing myself only in telly, books and videos....

So.... If anybody wanting to contact me, it would be via telephone.....

So, I guess... that should be everything I have, need and want to say....

Reunion??!!

Today my cousin came back from Johor to Kluang... With her kids...
Yeah, kids... she's got two kids at the age of 8 and 5... Yeah, I'm an auntie now..... Yea... yell it out, I don't care....
Hell! I'm an aunt at 7, dude.... I've already gotten used to being jeered at... Actually, You guys don't know what you guys are missing...

Anyway... I ducked and darted in the house to avoid a particularly slobbery and disgusting dog.... and i hit my toe on something....
Yea.. big deal... a toe...but let me tell you man, It hurts like hell.... Worse than hell...... it's now all red and black all over and it hurts even if i like, put it on the ground... To be frank, I'm like screaming in my head now.... And during the day..... let's put it like this.... I'd rather cut it now without anesthetic ...

that's all i guess.... it's a very painful and tiring day.... *Sigh*

Songs..

I flipped through my play list today... Found out that most of my songs aren't really categorized ... I mean sure, they're in separate folders with names and so.. but they're more of a jumbled mess... Different singers, different kind, style, even different languages.. I mean not only Chinese and English.... I also have Korean songs...
Yeah... Korean... Amazing how I can keep up with the lyrics...
let me see.. I've got...
Chocolate Love - Girls Generation
Gee - Girls Generation
Genie - Girls Generation
Ha Ha Ha - Girls Generation
Oh! - Girls Generation
Chocolate Love - ƒχ
Lachata - ƒχ

Well... I think they're great songs...
And the difference between Girls Generation's and ƒχ's Chocolate Love is that ƒχ's has rap but Girls Generation doesn't...
You might be more interested in my Chinese or English play list but... that's gonna take me hours too list it out... so maybe next time... Gotta Go....
Bye....
muaxx....

~♥sweet♥~

A girl asked a boy if she was pretty, he said "No." She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever, he said "No." Then she asked him if he would cry if she walked away, he said "No." She had heard enough, she needed to leave. As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay. He said, "You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. And i wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die." ♥

One night, a girl and boy were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket and passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the driver's seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it. "Without your love, i would die." ♥

朋友

突然想起了以前小学的朋友。。。
又想起姐姐每年都会很兴奋的告诉我关于她六年级的班的gathering。。 我才发觉到。。。原来。。。
我和六年级的朋友从来都没有gathering过。。。
不是完全没有。。。 而是，我们这班在中华读书的，被忽略了。。。
不然，为什么，他们开的生日派对，全部只请，读国中的朋友？？
不是我讨人厌，就算以前在班上很出名的。。。来到中华后，自己好朋友的生日派对，都没有请到他。。
不是他没有去，我在facebook看到照片。。第二天去问他为什么没有去，
他说：“哈？他有开party meh？都没有请我leh。。。”。。
所以，我们6D班，就分成了三派：
1）国中派
2）独中派
跟。。最惨的。。。
3）被遗忘派。。。

























希望大家都能保持联络。。。^_^

抱歉～

很对不起期待我的部落格的人。。
呃。。好啦，我答应，只要我记得的话我一定会来写。。
我知道我知道，天天写就可以了嘛。。问题是。。。 我不能天天写啊。。
妈妈的手提电脑不是可以天天借我的。。。妹妹会很吵诶。。
今天早上一开电脑，开不到10分钟，就hang 机了。。
就restart 咯。。
好了，开e-class。。
功课。。功课。。。
呼， 终于做完了。。。
check 一下我的list。。
发现还有历史还没做。。。 能怎么样？又没有答案卷。。
只好放弃咯。。。等开学再跟老师讲。。
可是又怕老师骂。。。
算了，难不成你要我怎样？
功课做完了，就去玩了啊。。
开facebook先。。。再开e-mail。。。。
好了，都看完了。。。 就读小说咯。。。
读。。。读。。。读。。。读。。。读。。。读。。。
读显了。。
啊！！ 想起了。。可怜的部落格。。。
那就过来写了啊。。。。
行了。。。没事写啦。。。 走啦。。。 bb~